Conversation Six
A Conversation about what happens when one part of you quietly takes up work that belonged somewhere else.
Last time I asked what else might belong on the page. Today I’d like to tell you why I care so much about the answer.
This is the first bit of the actual science, and I’m going to keep it small — one picture, nothing more. You don’t need anatomy to follow it. You’ve already lived it.
Think of walking back from the car with a heavy bag in one hand.
You don’t plan anything. But your other arm lifts a little away from your side. Your shoulder rises. Your ribs shift the other way. Your opposite hip does more of the work of holding you upright, and your steps become slightly uneven without your ever deciding they should.
Nobody taught you that. It happened in the first two steps, below the level of thinking, and it worked. You got to the door with the bag.
That is the whole idea. When one area can’t do quite as much as it used to — because of an old injury, a surgery, a long stretch of standing, or simply a part that has been sore for a while — the areas around it quietly take up the difference so you can keep doing what your day requires.
That is not the body failing. That is the body being useful.
Now change one thing about the picture. Imagine you never put the bag down.
Not because you’re careless — because that’s simply how the years went. The bag was a job, or a knee, or a season of caring for someone, and there was no obvious moment to set it down.
The helping arrangement holds up remarkably well. For a long time you wouldn’t notice anything at all. But work that is borrowed for an afternoon is different from work that is borrowed for eleven years. Eventually the part that has been helping starts to feel tired. Then tight. Then, some mornings, sore.
And here is the strange part, the part that sends people to appointment after appointment: the place that speaks up is the helper. Not the original. The shoulder that stepped in. The hip that carried more than its share. The neck that has been holding your head steady while everything underneath quietly rearranged itself.
Which is why an examination of only the loud spot can come back saying everything looks fine. In a sense, it is fine. It is simply tired from a job that was never really its own.
I want to be honest about the edges of this, because I would rather be trusted than impressive.
This does not explain all pain. Bodies have many reasons for hurting, and some of them need a doctor, a scan, and someone who is not me. Adaptation is one thread among several, and I would never hand you a single explanation for something as layered as a human life.
It also doesn’t mean that helping causes harm. Bodies adapt constantly and mostly do it beautifully, for decades, without anyone ever noticing. Tiredness in a part that has been working overtime is not damage, and it is not a verdict.
Maybe some of what feels like your body working against you began as your body trying to help you keep going.
You don’t have to decide whether that’s true of you. I’d only like the idea to be in the room, available, the next time something aches and the old thought arrives that your body is turning on you.
There is another possibility, and it has been quietly true of a great many people: something has been helping you for a very long time, and it is tired.
That is a much kinder thing to be living inside of. It also happens to be a far better starting point.
— Tammie
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