Conversation Nine
A Conversation for anyone who has nodded politely at that advice and had no idea what to do with it.
Someone has almost certainly said it to you. A doctor, a teacher, a friend who means well. Just listen to your body.
And you nodded, because what else is there to do, and then you went home and had no idea what you were supposed to have heard.
I want to say plainly: that is not a failing on your part. It is a genuinely unhelpful instruction, given without instructions.
And it lands especially strangely on someone like you, because of what we already sat with a few Conversations ago.
You were trained to keep going. For decades, something in you handled the quiet signals in the background so you could work, drive, cook, care for people, and finish what you said you would finish. That was not carelessness. It was competence.
So of course a finely tuned awareness of your own sensations isn’t simply sitting there waiting to be switched on. You spent a lifetime becoming good at the opposite, and you were praised for it.
There’s a second reason the phrase can feel impossible, and I think it’s the bigger one.
Most people hear listen and imagine something close to surveillance. Checking in constantly. Rating the pain. Noticing every twinge and wondering what it means. For anyone who has been unwell a long time, that isn’t peaceful — it’s exhausting, and it usually makes everything louder.
That is not what I mean, and I’d rather you never did it.
Listening does not have to be mystical, and it does not have to involve sensations at all. It can begin entirely with ordinary life.
What has become easier lately, and what has become harder. What you’ve quietly stopped doing without ever announcing it. What helps you settle after a difficult day. When your energy tends to drop, and whether it’s always around the same time. Which movement you find yourself going around instead of through. How you feel after sleep, or after rest that wasn’t really rest, or after a week with too much in it.
None of that requires being in tune with anything. It’s the sort of thing you already know about your own house, or your own car. You don’t monitor them. You just notice when something is different.
What is one thing your body does differently on a harder day?
Only one. And only if something came to mind on its own — if nothing did, that’s a fine answer too. You are not being asked to find it, fix it, or watch for it tomorrow.
If it feels worth keeping, write it in a line somewhere ordinary — a phone note, the back of a receipt. One sentence is plenty. It isn’t a record to maintain, and there is no second entry expected of you.
What I’ve found is that a single noticed pattern does more than months of careful tracking. It gives a person something real to say when someone finally asks a proper question.
That’s all listening has to be, at the beginning. Noticing one ordinary thing, and being allowed to leave it alone.
— Tammie
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